TRUST NO ONE!!

I don't know who to trust anymore. Who are my real friends and who are the fakes? At work I have been having issues with a "work" friend. We use to be super close and then all of a sudden she became a bitch towards me. She was also the person in charge of making the managers schedule. My hours were cut so I put my big girl pants on and confronted her. I asked if someone had changed their availability. NOPE. Did I do something wrong? NOPE. That was all she would respond with. A week or so ago she wasn't going to let me take my break, but one of my true friends told her that she wasn't going on break until I did. So I ended up getting a break. Later she "claimed" that she thought I took a break before she got there, that she saw me coming back in when she arrived. Ummm, NO!! I am a manager, and one that actually cares about her employees and works hard. I would not leave them alone during our busy time on a Friday morning. Whatever. She left at the beginning of the week to work at another store while their store manager is on maternity leave. Unfortuntatly she will be back. Yesterday I was on Facebook and realized that she removed me as a friend. And I now know that she doesn't like me. The reason for the shit at work was because she pretty much hates me. She kept everyone else at my store as a friend, but me. It hurts. It fuels the abandonment thoughts that run through my head because of BPD. I am trying to not let it get to me. At least I know where I stand now. Hopefully I will have a new job by then. I don't want to leave because of her. I am just tired of all their shit. Because if I am still there when she comes back something bad is gonna happen. I can feel it. I can only control my emotions for so long before I explode.

I was talking to a friend on messenger earlier and they asked if it was someone at work that decided to be a bitch to me. They asked who it was but told me if I didn't want to I didn't have to name them. I trust this friend. Him and his wife were the only friends that came to visit me when I was in the psychiatric hospital. I told him and it wasn't who he expected it to be that there is someone else there that is a backstabber. He wouldn't give me a name, but I am pretty sure I know who it is. She claims to be my friend and that she truly cares. So I asked him if it was someone I was close to and he said yeah. And he thought it was a good idea that I want to get a different job. I was told a couple years ago that she told everyone at work that I was in the psych ward. Not cool. And I was always complaining about the friend that was being a bitch to me. She "claimed" she didn't like her either, but then I started to notice her hanging around her all the time at work. So I am pretty sure she told her everything I said and that is why I got treated like shit at work. But since he didn't name names I am worried that maybe we are thinking of 2 different people. I am close to a few people at work. I don't know what to do. Maybe I will question his wife tomorrow when we go geocaching. I am hoping maybe she will tell me. I tried to figure it out by seeing if they removed any of our mutual friends. But everyone was still there.

I guess I need to keep my walls up.  TRUST NO ONE!!!